12:25 a.m.-2006-03-21 | The clouds are clearing...
I'm still here...still breathing. Each day falls into the next, but the clouds are slowly moving out of the way to let some light in on me. I fall asleep next to my soulmate every night and even in fits of anguish and pain I am happy. Just one kiss a day is worth what I missed for that short period of time. Now it feels as though that period of time never existed. As though it was a horrible dream that I wash away after a warm shower. After the heat and steam floats away I can once again see my life before me. It never happened. We are meant to be and we both know that. Like I always say, the stars aligned that night, and you know just what night I mean, and they shined down on just us. A moment in time that was just ours. A night we will never forgot and I retrace every step of that night whenever I remanence our greatest memory. A wonderful dream if you will. One that just replays in your head and ou can't keep yourself from smiling the whole while. The one to send chills through my body and fill my stomach with the butterflys which have been long forgotten. It's memories like that which remind me of my undying passion and love for you and only you. My heart belongs to you Kevin and no matter how you can't trust that, it will never belong to anyone else. I could never love anyone but you. The truest promise from my heart to yours. I love you and could not fathom existence with you. The clouds are clearing for me again...
...immobilized by my fear and soon to be blinded by tears...