3:49 a.m.-2003-06-15 | Mindless Rambles
Man I really need to go to bed. All I'm do is listen to fucking music and think about shit. For real...I need some fucking sleep. But I know as soon as I try...I'll just lay there...thinking. And then I'll get all depressed and wanna do something to keep my mind off of everything. So here I am again...wide awake at four o'clock in the fucking morning. I'm thinking about taking sleeping pills again. But then I just wake up feeling shitty sooo...I dunno. Should stop bitchin though.I realized today I don't trust anybody anymore...I mean not fully. You can only really trust yourself. Dunno... sounding kinda lame right now so new topic.
I feel so out of it right now. I want to go write some poems really bad but I don't wanna move. I'm afraid I'll pass out half way there. Just from exhaustion or something... God I'm re-reading everything I've written and I realize how fucking lame I sound. So I'm done trying to write this entry. Enough usless babble for me tonight. I'm gonna force myself to sleep.
later fucking days
Jamie
...immobilized by my fear and soon to be blinded by tears...
