blah. I feel like shit. go figure. I'm sure you can figure out who that's about from above but eh oh well. it's easier to leave it without using his name. doesn't make me feel so pathetic for loving someone who doesn't love me. Or at least won't tell me if he does or not. Won't tell me anything. omg...done "crying" over this.

Why can't your heart do what your head tells it to?

so life's been real sucky. I have no one to talk to about shit. no one... listens. so I just lock it away. no one ever asks what's wrong. no one sees how far under I've gone...how depressed I am. I can't deal with the stress from everything. Living in my house is becoming unbearable. Fucking broken home. I feel so dead.

been sick latley. it sucks. yeah.

going to see msi this friday. something to look foward to. yah. can you hear the excitement? yeah tara joe doug and maybe this kid i met from geneva,Dan, and me are all going. matt and rachel are suppposed to go too.

Blah drama...fucking blah to it all. I don't get why everything has to be drama. Why people blow everything out of poportion. Not relating to one thing...just a general bitching.

w/e. Fuck it all. I want to cry but I have nothing left. I'll just bottle it up for next time.

later days

Jamie