Damn it...My fucking Mudvayne cd won't play anything past the third fucking song. GOD DAMN IT!!! Why my Mudvayne cd??? :`( *tear

Man I am such a fucking dork. I cleaned my basement again today b/c no one else will clean in this house and I can't stand sitting down here with all my sister's shit laying around. I'm going to make a good wife one day. lol. I have to clean or else it fucking bugs the hell outta me.

I wish this house had food in it though. That would be a plus.

I'm in a pretty good mood today. Besides the fact that I'm tiread and hungry as fuck...I just feel better than I usually do. I feel...content. I thought about some shit a little last night and today and I kinda realized some shit. So yes I still feel like my life is fucking shit but I have a new mind set. I'm just glad I'm in a good mood for once. And I'm not going to let anything bother me today! :D

lol. It was raining when I went upstairs to get food and I stood there and looked at it for a while. I love the rain. Then I thought of that line from The Crow that Matthew said to me one time..."It can't rain all the time" How true...how true.

I want some ice cream real bad. I think when my mother gets back I'm going to call Nolan and tell him to walk up to DQ with me. I want a cookie dough blizzard like whoa. lol.

It's fucking Friday and I'll prolly just sit here on my ass all night. God damn I hate having no life sometimes...okay most of the time. I would have a fucking life if my mother was a paraniod bitch most of the time. Damn.

Anyhow...I think I'm going to go back over to Jamie's today if I ever get the energy to get up. Ya know what I was just thinking about that sucks? Okay so the reason I haven't really been hanging out over there b/c Nolan's been over here everyday and I wanna hang out with him since he's leaving in about a week. And now I'm thinking about what it's gonna be like not getting to hang out with him everyday ya know? Like I know I'm going to be sitting here all alone once he leaves. This sux. One of my best friends is leaving me and not coming back. I mean he'll visit for holidays but it's not the same. I don't have many ppl that I consider good friends so it sucks that it has to be one of my best ones.

Anyhow. God damn my sisters are getting annoying. I don't think I will be able to substain from beating the living shit out of them if I have to deal with their winney asses another day. And they've started already.

Man I want the rest of this ciggerrette but I'm saving it for when Nolan gets off of school. What a good friend I am. lol.

Hmm...the little ones won't stop crying for me to get off of here and I can't stand yelling at them anymore so I guess this is farewell for now.

later days

Jamie