I want to go to the mall tonight b/c Mike is working, but he was real mean to me on the phone ealier. He fucking hung up on me for no fucking reason and when I called him back a little later he said he had to go. Nothing to get worked up about...but I wish we wouldn't have gay little incidents like these. ya know? oh well...I just want to see him.

Anyhow. Nina and I were trying to find a way to get drunk tonight. But I dunno if I'm even in the mood to do anything fun tonight. I wish I could get in a car and just get on the freeway and keep driving till I fall asleep looking out the window at all the stars...wishing my life away. Wake up in a new place...experience new things. Then go home. Fall asleep in someone's arms, feeling warm and safe. Like nothing could ever hurt me. Like I could feel no pain at all. Blah. I dream way too much...maybe too much for my own good. *sigh

Hope you guys like my new layout. B/c I really do. Found it last night. fun fun I feel like such a loser. anyhow. nina's computer is being real dumb... soooo.

My life is falling down like rain...And Ill be the one to drown.-Erase the Grey

later days

Jamie