anyhow. I got a date to homecoming since Mike couldn't go with me... Travis. It'll be fun...he's a fun kid to be around and we're good friends so.

Yeah I have that gay game tonight. My mom told me I could skip it if I wanted but I have nothing else to do and I think I'll fail band if I do anyhow. And the only reason she wanted me to skip was b/c she wants me to babysit. fuck that...i'd rather sit through a game with a couple of my friends then be stuck home alone again. ya know?

I am so pissed at nolan. he's sposed to be my best friend and it seems like he doesn't want to talk to me at all. he promised me he would call one day and never did. wtf is his problem. I told him he would forget and he said he wouldn't then he did.

I felt so pretty today I had so many kids starting at me. lol. Checking ME out...lol hell yeah go me.

so anyhow. I miss Mike I want to see him. He said he would try to work out a way to some see me before 4:30 (when i have to leave for band) but it's already a quarter after 3 so I figure he's not going to. I figured he wouldn't in the first place, but he told me he'd try. I just want to see him. :(

blah...well i think I'm going to go b/c I have nothing more to say. Hate these empty feelings...wish I could smile a real smile.

later days

Jamie