Back to my BFF drama. I read her diary today and it hurt so bad...that she would trust every other person who has nothing to do with this and not me. I know what I did was wrong...I admitted that. But she wouldn't listen to me. There was nothing I could do except apologize and that wasn't enough. Than she commented on my screaming at her. When someone handles the situation the way she did...what do you expect? She was fine until other people started opening their mouths than all of a sudden confront me and get in my face after a whole day of nothing but frustration and hell. I don't understand why one mistake could tear up a friendship and why she would blame it on my lying then lie straight to my cousin and my faces but I guess that's how life works...Now I'm just trying to stay outta that whold crowd of drama. That's all they bring anyhow. Ugh then Jerrod called me last night and I don't know why. I'm trying not to get involved with him or any of them but they drag me in slowly. I am quite content with the friends I have now because they're honest and trustworthy. And I'm actually happy. I feel like something bad is coming but for once I can't be blamed. I've tried so hard to stay out of their lives since they made it so clear they didn't want me in it. I've just become a better person from this and I just sit here reminding myself that all wounds eventually heal. And even the ugliest scars go away.

later days

Jamie