3:23 a.m.-2003-06-13 | INSOMNIA..for real...not cool
Yeah...INSOMNIA...this is shitty. I cannot sleep. I tried and tried, but I just sit there thinking. GOD DAMN IT... lol Actually I'm in an okay mood. I realize that if Matt doesn't wanna be with me then it wasn't meant to be. It hurts like hell...but it's prolly for the best (I figure if I keep telling myself that...it won't hurt as bad). I mean...it's not like I loved him or anything. It just kinda sucks...I was grounded that entire time because of Matt ya know? And all I thought about everyday was him and how bad I missed him. But obviousley he didn't feel the same so...hmm...Anyhow...Nina is over right now... yeah I'm ungrounded. lol. Forgot to add that. yeah...lol I dunno
lalalala...SO I WISH I COULD GET SOME SLEEP...for real.
later days
Jamie
...immobilized by my fear and soon to be blinded by tears...
