Speaking to the atmosphere no one's here and I fall into myself..

1:29 a.m.-2003-08-20 | Rain on me again...

So today was a good day. I went to Mike's. Then Justin picked me up and took me to band. Then he picked me up and took me to Dairy Queen then back to Mikes. Then Tara, Ryan, Mike, and me went back to my house. I'm real glad I hung out with him today. I just like him more and more. I'm afraid to let myself b/c of past shit...but I do. A lot.

Nina and me are sposed to hang out tommorrow and we're sposed to hang out with Mike and Doug. fun fun.

I need to start eating. I'm too damn weak nowadays. I guess since I think I'm gaining too much weight I pysch myself out so that I think I'm never hungry. But then I feel all shitty like I do now. I can't win for nothing.

Where you going??? NOWHERE...lol. Just popped into my head. :) It happens.

So I'm sorta in a shitty mood...trying to hide it though. I'm doing a good job eh? Yeah it happens...dunno. It's taking everything I have not to get shitty with ppl tonight. I was such a bitch to a lot of ppl though. oh well. it happens.

Searching for a glimpse of sunshine, but all I've found is rain...

later days

Jamie

...immobilized by my fear and soon to be blinded by tears...