I am not perfect and I'm not going to pretend that I am. I wish she would just accept that people aren't always how you expect them to be. Damn.
So yeah I haven't even talked to Matthew since I hung out with him. How shitty is that? Ya know you'd think I'd get a phone call or something. I mean I don't expect anything b/c we're not together or anything...but it would be nice. I don't even know. It just sucks b/c I hung out with him and it brought back all those feelings I had for him before and then I get no contact from him...I dunno. I know it shouldn't bother me...so I guess I'll try to not let it.
Nina told me she thinks Matthew used me for shit b/c he knew I would do it. Goddamn how slutty does that make me sound? I mean it's true...but only for him. I wouldn't do shit like that with anyone else like I did...I don't know what to think.
My little sister Jordan was down here just talking to me and I realized how much she looks like me. It's crazy and she acts like me a lot too...I have a mini-me. hahahaha. lol. God I'm a dork.
I painted the top of my shoes red and black and it looks kick ass. Hell yeah.
Oh ya know what? I went to the ortho today and they told me I HAVE to get braces since I still have a baby tooth so it will pull the adult tooth over or w/e. And I hafta keep them on for a year and a half. I have a choice though. I can get them in September or after I graduate. I don't know what to do. I am so pissed about it. B/c of one fucking tooth I hafta look like a fucking retard. I don't want them at all. Ugh...this sucks. All I know is when I get them I won't be smiling for a looooooooooooooooooooooooooong time.
Hmmm...my hair is all curly today and cute. lol. I like it and I usually hate my hair so I thought I'd inform all of you on this. In case you actually do give a fuck.
So I turned in my applications to Sheets and Wendy's today. Ugh working. Oh and then I got one for K-mart and I'm sposed to get one for Wal-mart too. I already am getting a job at a bed and breakfast by my house but that's not till the middle of September soo...
Anyhow my mother told me that she is indeed taking me to get my belly button peirced for my B-day. Whoohoo. And I hope I get that black widow spider barbell for my b-day cuz it's fucking kick ass. And then I want a tatoo of a spider on my hip. How awesome will that look?
Anyhow. I am so sick of being here. My lil sis won't stop being a bitch to me and I am so fucking pissy right now I'm ready to knock her the fuck out. For real.
I don't even know anymore...Fuck it. Sorry if I bored you all once again with my mindless babbling. Oh well.
later days...
Jamie