good lyrics. makes me think. makes me realize maybe i'm not the only one in this world who feels shit like that. w/e.

so i didn't write before that mike and i broke up. He broke up with me for some shit. then afterwards i heard about some shit that he said about my not caring about him and treating him like shit. wtf? I was the best girlfriend to him. anyhow i also heard he was looking for excuses to dump me. I'm not going to get into his excuse...don't feel like typing it out. I dunno I want to be with him but not if he doesn't wanna be with me that bad...so I suppose we won't get back together since he obviousley doesn't feel for me at all anymore. I just know I'll still love him.

anyhow. I still feel like I have nothing at all. tonight was so horrible. i sat at the game for the most part by myself. people kept walking up to me and talking to me and i just stood there and it's like everyone came from all directions at once and i dunno i just started crying. i couldn't help it. I don't know why I did. weird. it just felt weird how everyone was talking to me and joking around with me about shit and never noticed that i wasn't even looking at them or smiling or anything. oh well better that way i suppose...

We watched Romeo and Juliet today and i cried. I love that movie. *sigh

well nothing else to say...my hands hurt from being so cold ealier at the game and shit so i think i'm just going to go to bed. Wishing for gentle dreams to help me through the night... but vizualing the nightmares which follow me into my realm of sleep.

later days

Jamie